Subawareness Matrix

Fell into wrong world

Skin not mine

Thought translator malfunctioning

Verbalizer desynchronized fibulations

 Flooded by fluency errors

Words stammering uncontrollably

Manifesting interface malfunction

Consciousness dimensional slicer out of tweak

You see it is not just a matter of doing or not doing

It is deeper than that

There is a basic subawareness interface corruption

or matrix error

I understand those who are mad

                They are Others like me

 perhaps

                                Lost in the wrong world or mind phase

i am not mad really, although it appears so even to myself

i am not on mushrooms or some drug or plant

i am simply try ing to make sense of that place between

unverbalizable subaware soul/self and my conscious mind and its interaction with the

manifested world

projections, maybe of a deeper disruption of awareness or selfness?

Throwing away the models and scaffolding of what is “real” in search of true freedom

from the limitations of my own beliefs in the solidity of world

How can I really change as long as I, “I” am ridgid and stone cast as the world I perceive around me.

I am ripe for change, always have been

                Simply never have found the right mold to pour into.

Like trying to fly in dreams, it takes so much concentration

just to function and appear to fit the accepted model.

I shall be my own mold, shapless and shiftingshapeness as cloudness

                Some souls perhaps are still not formed

                                or maybe never will be

perhaps be-ing is never to just be