Thank you :) There are times I feel like a mange ridden dog or leper in the way my emotions seem to be felt by others, particularly those who I desire and matter most. I hear them silently say “We like you but, please keep your distance and don't get close.” LOL Just some old crap that comes up that has been dissolving lately. It was something that needed to be felt and said to help it on its way. Reason changes fast, those old hurts and feelings are slower to heal. But heal they do and sometimes amazingly fast.
I have always been a searcher, looking for the Holy Grail, philosopher’s stone or ovum anguinum; searching for some hidden secret hidden knowledge which would transform my being into something more worthy than I felt it to be.
I searched, spent years of study of Quantum Mechanics, Physics, Cosmology, and Microbiology. I searched the esoteric writings of enlightened eastern, western mystics and established religions, all to no avail. The truth I sought, was not to be found in this world or the next, it was not anything which could be grasp, held in my hand or given to another.
The closest I have come to seeing truth was to gaze into the eyes of a new born babe. It is this innocent wonder, the light of the Divine Mystery shining out from the soul; which is love, life, and truth.
This Holy Grail is found within, if only I dare to look through the darkness which cloaks it so well and walk quietly, patiently, waiting for those rare moments when the dark clouds part and the light shines, warming the empty coldness which so often engulfs me.
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you are not unclean
Thank you :)
There are times I feel like a mange ridden dog or leper in the way my emotions seem to be felt by others, particularly those who I desire and matter most. I hear them silently say “We like you but, please keep your distance and don't get close.” LOL Just some old crap that comes up that has been dissolving lately. It was something that needed to be felt and said to help it on its way. Reason changes fast, those old hurts and feelings are slower to heal. But heal they do and sometimes amazingly fast.
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